Since not a lot of people (if anyone) reads this anymore, I'm just going to vent my heart out--even though it may be "against the unwritten rule."

Of course, what does that even mean anymore? We change the unwritten and written laws all the time now. We learned in law that "common law" (yes, the unwritten stuff) is still law. And standard of practice should be followed. But it seems like when it came down to it, all those things were thrown out the window. We got focused on all the nitty-gritty and lost sight of the whole picture. We didn't even vote on the most important thing of why we came together in the first place (At least not separately as we did for the other things. And if we really want to be technical, we voted without even having enough people present. Of course, we are having difficulties with "technicality" in that we uphold as an "unwritten" rule for some things and not for others.)

All those changes that we made--I mean, really, is it really going to be followed since it doesn't say that anywhere else? Or answer this, are we really going to be the ones who have to have everything written down? Seriously now, even pharmacy law (or any law for that matter) doesn't have EVERYTHING written down.

We totally lost sight of the real issue. When it comes down to the most critical point of your life, you're going to need a make a choice. You make choices everyday. One choice will be right and another will be wrong. Either way, it'll lead you to two different paths--and as people, we should have recognized that! Just because someone else makes the wrong choice, it isn't our responsibility necessarily to correct it (if it's even our responsibliity at all). Also, life happens, including the stuff that you can't control--and even those things have consequences. If you happen to be driving and get into a car accident and the other driver dies, it's still something that you are going to have to live with. You can't take that back! And just because you didn't know a rule doesn't mean that it doesn't exist. Just like in pharmacy, you have to know every rule/law because violating any one of them can cause harm to a patient. It's not good enough to know 99% of the law because the 1% that you didn't know could get you in trouble.

When you're sitting in that seat, you know your options. You're thinking about it in your head. There's no time limit...you can take all the time you need. You weigh the pros and cons and you make a decision. No one forces you into saying or doing anything other than to make a choice. If the first thing that comes out of your mouth screws everyone else over (especially those who are supposed to be the closest to you), doesn't that say something about yourself? If you're willing to step over other people just to get to your own finish line without regard to anyone...let's put it this way, if you were the one being stepped on, I don't think you'd appreciate it either. Can those people change and learn otherwise? Of course they can. Can we guarantee that they will? No. With the dynamic and relationship that we have, I thought we're supposed to be building each other up, not tearing us apart. The foundation was already laid down for us and it was sturdy! Now, we're possibly adding kinks to the support beams. If you're building something, having a good foundation isn't good enough. You need to have a strong support and structures too to keep everything upright. Without those, we might as well just fall apart and it'll be all for nothing.

All we did was rewrite a few lines and wrote down what we already did. That isn't solving the problem. That's just writing down our problem in stone. We didn't move anywhere. We said, "We'll just leave it up to them." Look at what happened the last time we did that. There is a reason why they say history repeats itself--because we don't learn from our mistakes. What we really need to do is start fixing those kinks. My question is, how are you going to do that when we keep building everything else on top of it? Before we know it, it's too late and the building is going to crumble down. The only way to fix the kinks is to not put them there in the first place. And if they do occur, they should be smoothed out as soon as those kinks are found. Are we going to find all the kinks? Probably not, but that is irrelevant. We have to smooth out the ones that we find so that the ones that we don't find don't overpower the whole thing. The ultimate question is this: Do we have the guts and the strength to anticipate the kinks and keep them from happening? If you ask me...not anymore. And that is very unfortunate for me to say because here I thought we had a fighting chance. I really do hope you prove me wrong. I mean, history already repeated itself once--what is it to keep it from happening again?

Bottom line, I just feel that we failed at the most important thing that we were entrusted to do.

(Disclaimer: I'm just venting. It's not going to change things anyway, but with all due respect, I guess everyone is entitled to his/her opinion. And I'm sure people are going to disagree with this one, but that is what makes us unique. Sometimes our strengths can ultimately be our pitfalls. I guess we'll just see where this goes.)